Went for the first interview on 19th May 2012. Did something real stupid..and got booted out. Was very depressed at that point of time. Luckily i have supportive and silly friends who are always around to cheer me up. Without them i think i may die crying.
I no longer know who i can consider as friend. I think XY is hiding something from me. But whatever it is i do not appreciate it. Hide for all she wants, she can think that i may know nothing about it. I will not confront her as well. Being at this age, confrontation is silly. I will just play the games as she plays.
The only comfort i have now is that i no longer need to face so much criticism right at my face. But well..it have shifted behind my back.
Seriously, what do all these people know? How much do they know me to give me such great amount of distrust?! Read on zodiac that if someone mistrusted me, i will pull back all my trust i have given in and then make sure they gets none back. Yes. That’s me. I love how i had command on things, and i have absolutely no wish to have it taken away from me. However, at the same time, i would want people to have a mind of their own, Who can make decisions and have their own opinion so i need not be always be the one taking care of them.
Smiling, is the way i use to pretend innocence. Pretended that i know nothing, pretending that i am well, pretended that i am the bad guy.
The one who cries first always win. I know and i will not conform to it. You want to cry, you can. I shall be the bad guy and i shall continue with my high flying lifestyle while you can continue to be the relic of earth!
Am really happy!! I can sleep smiling already. I really misses him. 
